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HAPPY HALLOWEEN
Let me start off by saying how much I love Halloween. It’s the only holiday I celebrate for the entire month (unless u consider my bday a holiday lol).
This year, I went to the Haunted Hayride in LA with a friend of mine. He directed Gravedancers as well as several other awesome horror films. (Btw, keep your eyes and ears open for Big Ass Spider starring Greg Grunberg). Naturally, I thought who better to spend Halloween time with than a creator of horror?! It was so much fun, we lost track of time though so I didnt end up fucking him this time since Vivid wanted me on set bright n early.I shot with JonJon for Mike Bisco. I gotta say, the tease/intro was shot in a way Id never seen before. Not only was the camera itself new to me but I was told to be very cute and sweet and innocent. I rarely get to use that side of my personality on set. Lots of cutsie smiles, batting my eyelashes, licking my finger, giggling. I felt so cute and cuddly. Then, fast forward to scene and I’m riding big black cock like its going out of style. The transition within my psyche from cutsie/cuddly to fuckng a BBC was so sexy to me. It was the perfect Nice to Naughty moment, which Ive been experiencing a lot lately. I’m not sure what the title of the film will be but when I find out Ill let you all know.
Saturday night I hung out with an old booty call of mine. We were going to do Halloween Horror Nights at Universal but decided to play it low key. Besides we r both UFC fans so we went to our local bar and watched Nick Diaz beat the shit out of BJ Penn. I always root for the underdog but I knew in my heart Diaz would take it. I mean, he’s so vicious. I would love to see him fight dirty in the streets, no rules. With 911 on speed dial of course. Nonetheless you have to admire The Prodigy’s determination to withstand the beating for the full 3 rounds. Honestly though, when there is a 6″ difference in reach, is it even worth debating who will win? Comments?
Anyways, after we watched the fight and ate some spicy wings, we saw Paranormal Activity 3. In my opinion, it was very scary but not as scary as the first (aint that how it goes?). But that’s not saying much because I get scared when I take a shower because fucking Psycho is imprinted into my brain. Thats what I get for loving film. On the upside, the young ladies at the movie theatre were very pretty. My my, especially running up and down the stairs, gossiping and giggling, Bathroom breaks and popcorn runs. Ah, I love thee ladies.
To end up our activities, we met up with an old friend at a hookah lounge to support him (he is a Dj) it was fun to see him again and I must say, he’s very easy on the ears. Plays great music. But once again, my focus was not on the people I was with, but on the ladies. Above the Dj booth that was a tv that had music videos from Russia playing non stop. The girls in these videos were retardedly smoking hot. I kept thinking “hm.. I had no idea we came in that level of hotness” I suppose it was rude to ignore my bootycall/date but don’t worry I made up for it when we got home. I sucked his dick Nice n hard as soon as I got there and he fingered me til I came. Then fingered me again… In the ass. Til I came even harder. I always cum so much harder with things in my butt. He likes making me cum, and I like making him cum… so I did… down my throat . I like making boys cum, but u already knew that lol. After that session, we passed out… then we woke up in the middle of the night and he made me cum again! He’s a real gentleman this one. In the morning, 2 more orgasms, more ass play, deep throating and ball gagging lead to a nice big load in my pussy. Naturally, I pushed it out and slurped it all up in the palm of my hand. Nice n clean.
Tonight, the Halloween festivities continue as I pass out candy to the neighborhood. Its always fun to party and do the haunted stuff and get laid because of a sexy costume but there’s something rewarding about giving children cavities. Lol, jk, just trying to be Nice.
Tootles! ENJOY THE PICS.
<3 Nat
Life is awkward
I don’t know what to say. I feel like something is really wrong. I feel awkward. Like, really awkward. And it’s an intense energy that resonates when I enter a room. At least, I think it does. It’s been getting better but I feel like I’ve insulted the people who have been around me in the past couple months, on set and at school.
I’m torn between two. I have a couple really big things going for me in my career right now. One in particular being the highlight of my 5 years in the biz. But should I push forward and put the necessary work into my looks required to continue this career? Or should I quit while I’m ahead and focus on building my inner self? Obviously I want to do both.
One thing is for sure: I definitely need some separation from my family. I never thought I would ever say that. But the truth is, their opinion of me matters to me, because I love them and unfortunately, their religious mindset makes it impossible for them to be proud of me. That brings me guilt which leads me to deny my naughty side. On the other hand, the constant “when are you going to leave your job” is creating the very same necessity that made me GET this job: rebellion- which leads me to deny my nice side.
This constant bickering between Naughty and Nice, this jumping out of my porn character, into my family character and vice versa can only lead to insanity. I may or may not be on the brink but I definitely need to be true to myself. I am a sweet girl but I also have basic human needs, such as the one to feel the touch of a man and his control over me. And the need to nurture, which in me, manifests itself in a desire to please a woman to the best of my ability until she can’t handle it anymore. It’s not in the Bible that’s for sure. But it is in me.
I’ve been thinking about those Southwest commercials lately. “wanna get away”? Remember those? Lol. I totally wanna get away. I want to buy a one way ticket to Australia and just kick it til I don’t feel awkward anymore. But…running from a problem is like taking painkillers. It will only numb the problem, it won’t fix it.