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Stroke that big…ego

Hey everyone! Man has it been an insane week. I have a friend/mentor who used to work at Paramount pictures and he swears on his life that I have what it takes to be an actress. So after months of telling him that he is crazy I decided to see for myself. After all, the moment I tell myself I can’t do something, I’m closing myself off to the possibility of being able to do it. So on Wednesday my friend and I went to an acting class. It’s pretty well known and I kept thinking i had already met some of the people there which may be a sign that I saw them on TV one time. I was giving them the where-have-I-seen-that-person-before look lol. Anyways, I was given a script and a partner and we ran our lines in front of a small crowd. Then we got critiqued. I was told that I am a force to be reckoned with and that made me feel proud. I was also told I am 99% in love with myself and I’m not sure how I feel about that. I respect humility but in retrospect I can be very selfish. Anyways, the class was really cool because I got to learn a little about how to tap into my own Self. Too bad it went from 7:30pm to 2:30am lol. On Thursdays the studio organizes a showcase for producers, casting directors and agents to come meet the actors and see them perform their skits. The critics only invite the actors whom they feel actually have a shot at being cast and I got invited (yes I’m tooting my own horn). So I went the next day and was approached by a casting director for a feature film. He told me to watch a certain film and come back next week to let him know if I feel I can play a certain part. So I’ll be going next Thursday to showcase a new skit and hopefully be given an audition. I think it’s really fucking cool not only in terms of ego boosting but just to have the opportunity to seize life and decide one day out of the blue to pursue a new dream and then do it. It’s the power of free will I guess and I think it’s fucking beautiful. It’s tricky though because you would think we want the best for ourselves and yet I’m sure we can all testify to doing something completely destructive. Because bad choices are also the power of free will. For example someone who smokes knows the consequences and yet lights up anyways. What is that but a sort of intentional self-destruction by way of pleasure? It’s funny because after last night, I felt very discouraged because there was so much talent there and I didn’t feel adequate. Then I had to remind myself that I had been chasing this for less than 48 hrs and to calm the fuck down lol. I swear sometimes I expect myself to be perfect. And then when I fall short I lose all confidence. In a sense perfectionism motivates me to constantly be improving something about my life but in another sense it completely disables me because don’t you know it’s impossible to achieve lol. Like last night I felt like a failure cuz I wasn’t as good as everyone else when in reality I’m just MUCH less experienced. I was going to quit but then my English class got cancelled for this Saturday afternoon and the acting coach invited me to their Saturday class so I thought “hmmmm… Ok this is most likely a coincidence but just in case, I’m gunna go for it”. I’m not sure what to expect but I’ve been told its physically draining and emotionally recharging. So naturally I’m in lol.

Anyways on top of the acting stuff, I had a pretty busy week at school. I turned in the paper from last week and she accepted it . I got an 18/20 and a 19/20 on the quizzes from 2 weeks ago so I felt very proud about school. Then I missed class this morning. The past 2 nights of acting class left me pretty tired and on top I didn’t do my assignment of going to the fucking zoo an staring at primates and recording their every move for 3-4 hrs. Like, my teacher is nuts. So I guess that grade may be see-saw’ing. I can’t wait til finals are over lol. Anyways, this is all I have for you at this moment. I’ll write more later about today’s sextivities

Morning :)

What’s up friends. Today is goin to be a busy day! First up I’m going to the salon, then school and then maybe bed bath and beyond. I dont know if I’ll have enough time . All in all it’s gunna be a pretty nice little Saturday. Lol. I hope u all got that. Anyways thank for all ur cock pics and videos. I came so hard last night to one of em. I can’t remember which one. It was black. I think I’ll rub one out to a white guy this afternoon if school starts to bore me lol. Anywho just wanted to say hey and have a fuckig awesome weekend whatever/whoever you do

School, schoolgirls, buttplugs

Back from Mother’s Day weekend. It was fun. My sisters are in town, one in from New York and one from London. It’s awesome to have them here. We crack up like little schoolgirls whenever we’re together. As much as I love them to death, I can’t wait for them to go home so I can return to my normal masturbation schedule. Friday night after my last blog post, I tried cumming again and the headache was more or less gone (read last blog post). Thank God right?!

So today I have a pretty boring day ahead of me. I’m leaving for the gym in an hour. Going to train for an hour then spin for 45 minutes and then do core conditioning for the last 45 minutes. I love working out. It makes me feel strong and it motivates me to stay on track with everything I’ve got going in life right now. After the gym it’s straight to the books. I have a math exam tonight whoopdidoo. I know I’ll do well cuz Ive made sure of it. I’m seriously becoming a nerd with school lol.If my sisters werent here I’d wear my little schoolgirl skirt just to play heehee. I’m joining the accelerated program this month and as soon as I reach 15 credits, I’m going for the Honor’s Program. Gotta spritz up those college apps you know what I mean? I’m trying to get a full scholarship which I don’t need because I’ve already saved up 80% of what I will need to attend my most expense college of choice. It’s more of a pride thing.

I should do a nerd-themed scene. It would be great lol Gotta get some glasses.

Anyways so after my test I’m going straight to one of my booty calls’ houses. Gotta stretch my asshole for May 18th. I’m soooooooo excited about my first anal. Okay so its not my first, but it will be YOUR  first seeing it lol. Geez I need to go toy shopping. I want to put one of those pretty butt jewels in there.  What would you all like to see?

Crap gotta get ready for the gym. Tootles!! I’ll blog tomorrow morning after getting fucked in the ass by one of my booty calls. Hahaha. I love life.

Love

Nat